RebelZva – Anarchy Guru

What do you love now, that you hated when you were younger?

the biggest one is probably being taken care of

• when i was younger (16-19) i hated the idea of depending on anyone, i thought it made me weak

• i wanted to be the tough independent alt girl who didn’t need help or softness

• now? i crave it.

i love when my husband brings me breakfast in bed, rubs my sore pregnant feet, kisses my stretch marks, and holds me when i’m emotional

• it doesn’t make me weak — it makes me feel safe enough to be soft

• another one is domestic stuff

• younger me thought cooking, cleaning, and “playing house” was boring and lame

• now i get excited about folding his hoodies, making him dinner, and nesting for our baby girl

• it feels good to build a home

• and honestly?

being pregnant

• teenage me would have laughed at the idea of being someone’s pregnant wife at 23

• i thought it would ruin my “cool” life

• but i love this.

i love my changing body, feeling our daughter kick, and how it’s made me softer and hornier and more in love with my husband

• it’s the most powerful and beautiful thing i’ve ever done

• so yeah… i’ve learned that the things i used to run from (softness, dependence, domesticity, vulnerability) are actually the things that make me the happiest now

• growth is weird like that.