RebelZva – Anarchy Guru

What is one way you have grown this year?

this year i grew the most in learning how to be soft without feeling weak

• i used to think i had to stay the tough, unbothered alt girl who didn’t need anyone and never showed vulnerability

• somewhere between finding out i was pregnant, letting my husband completely wreck me, and then having him rub cocoa butter on my sore ass the next morning… something inside me shifted

• i stopped believing that wanting to be a wife and mom made me less cool or less “me”

• i can still blast loud music, wear all black, write filthy things, and beg to be destroyed… but i can also cry over tiny black onesies, get excited about nursery furniture, and say “i miss you” when he leaves for work

• i don’t have to choose between the wild alt girl and the pregnant wife anymore — both versions get to exist and both get loved so hard

• the biggest growth?

trusting that being loved doesn’t make me weak… it makes me brave enough to be soft, messy, kinky, vulnerable, and completely myself all at once

• and that feels like the realest version of me yet 🖤